From the July 6 issue of the New York Times magazine comes this article on suicide. Author Scott Anderson tells a frustrating tale. The most troublesome question concerns why improvements in mental health care have not led to a reduction in the suicide rate, which has remained constant since 1965 at 11 per 100,000 people. But the really fascinating part comes at the end. Anderson speaks with people who have survived a suicide attempt and have become different people--with no further inclination to kill themselves. I'll quote some it here:
"One aspect of the survivors’ personalities that appears to have been
left behind is whatever mind-tumble caused them to try to kill
themselves in the first place. Since their attempts, none of the
survivors I spoke with had experienced another impulse toward suicide...
"For each, it’s
almost as if their near-death experience scared them straight,
propelled them back to a point of recovery beyond even their own
imagining. But that’s actually not so unusual; just as Seiden [a resesarcher] found
that less than 10 percent of people thwarted from jumping off the
Golden Gate Bridge went on to kill themselves, a host of studies show
that same percentage holds among those who carry out “near fatal”
attempts but somehow survive. Beginning in the 1970s, Dr. David Rosen,
a psychiatrist and Jungian psychoanalyst, tracked down and conducted
lengthy interviews with nine people who survived leaps from the Golden
Gate, as well as one who had gone off the nearby Bay Bridge.
“What
was immediately apparent,” Rosen recounted, “was that none of them had
truly wanted to die. They had wanted their inner pain to stop; they
wanted some measure of relief; and this was the only answer they could
find. They were in spiritual agony, and they sought a physical
solution.”
"In September 2000, Kevin Hines, a 19-year-old
college student suffering from bipolar disorder, leapt from the Golden
Gate. Along with Ken Baldwin, he is one of only 29 known survivors of
the fall. Today Hines controls his bipolar disorder with medication and
a strictly controlled regimen of diet
and exercise and sleep, even while maintaining a frenetic schedule.
Having recently married, he is frequently on the road lecturing for a
suicide-prevention network while simultaneously working toward a psychology degree. One of his most intense ambitions, though, is to finally see a suicide barrier erected on the Golden Gate.
“I’ll
tell you what I can’t get out of my head,” he told me in his San
Francisco living room. “It’s watching my hands come off that railing
and thinking to myself, My God, what have I just done? Because I know
that almost everyone else who’s gone off that bridge, they had that
exact same thought at that moment. All of a sudden, they didn’t want to
die, but it was too late. Somehow I made it; they didn’t; and now I
feel it’s my responsibility to speak for them.”